Attempting WW....AGAIN!

I have to. I can't stand looking at myself in the mirror. It's horrible. I don't like what I see. At all. I know I'll never be the weight I was at 18 or look like I was at 18 but I can at least attempt to get myself a little thinner and healthier. And I want to be more active. Doing yardwork yesterday I thought I'd die. I don't know how many times I can fail at weight loss before I begin to see that I have to do it. The only person who can motivate me is myself. And I need to work on that. Starting now. I'm going to have to realize that I can't eat the things that I want to. Or at least not large portions of them. But when I start eating them I just keep eating them. So. I have to give up the unhealthy things and work on trying new things. So here we go...